By my very nature I tend to expect the worst. I like to be pleasantly surprised instead of disappointed. I've been really proud of myself for how hard I've been working at losing weight and getting healthy. Last week-end we had dinner with friends and she kept mentioning quite a few times throughout the evening how noticeable my weight loss is. I weigh and measure myself often so I can see the loss there but it was nice to hear from someone else that my hard work is starting to show. But at the same time there's a nagging fear in the back of my head saying what if you slack off and wake up one day heavier and fatter than you've ever been? So I stick on my runners and log another workout.
After I gained weight I was frustrated one day and threw out/gave away all my too small clothes. I didn't think about what would happen if I lost the weight. I just wanted their reminder gone from my sight. My husband made me keep a few of my favorite items but basically they're all gone. I'm going on a vacation for my best friend's wedding next month, so this week-end I'm hoping to get some clothes shopping done for the trip. I'm on the border of a smaller size. If things keep going the way they have I may be one size smaller than that before I leave. However, at this moment I'm alllmmooosst there. I've been trying to decide if it's a smart idea to purchase a smaller size and hope I keep kicking butt. Or stick to the size I am and try to alter them myself if needed.
When I ordered my bridesmaid dress in December I tried on the one they had in that style and my size. It fit pretty good without being all laced up tight so I ordered that one in the right color. The dress should arrive next week and if my workouts keep doing what they should I will possibly be 3 dress sizes smaller.
And even though I know I have a long way till I'm in the Maintenance stage, I'm celebrating the small achievements. I've been learning a lot along the way like the importance of eating enough calories, hydrating your body before workouts, and taking rest days. So this week-end when I'm in a store and feeling very insecure and self-conscious I'll remember that even though I might not fit a size 4 I'm working hard to get heathy. And I'm stubborn enough to work till I do it.
I definitely understand your mixed feelings about this. But look at how awesome you've been doing with being healthy and getting in shape. You've been making such positive lifestyle changes that I think you owe it to yourself to look on the sunny side. As I like to say, "prepare for the worst, but expect the best."
ReplyDeleteVery true! It's all about focusing long-term and having patience in the present! Hm... interesting saying. I think I need to remember that more often!
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